Broken into Place

Who knew that a two week trip could completely change your life! God had to take me to the other side of the world to show me something that I now realise you can experience literally anywhere if you’re willing. That is when God breaks your heart for what breaks His--your heart is in fact broken into place. At least that’s what I found to be true.

During our break between term 2 and term 3 at C3 College, I had the incredible opportunity, along with 4 other college students to travel to Uganda for two weeks on a Ministry trip. Having wanted to travel to Africa nearly my whole life but believing that it was something that was set for a much later date, had me absolutely blown away at the goodness and faithfulness of God in his provision of and for this trip. However, what I thought would be just an incredible experience turned into a two-week adventure where God did something unbelievably radical in my heart and in my soul.

One of the many things that I learnt from my short time in Africa is that the pain and emotional turmoil you face when your heart is being broken into place is nothing in comparison to the passion and love that is stirred up within you. It lifts your eyes off of yourself and onto others and it enables you to dream far bigger than you ever thought possible. We spend so much of our time trying to avoid pain for obvious reasons, because it hurts and it’s uncomfortable but what if that pain stirred a passion, a fire within you, what if it propelled you into a greater vision for your life, what if it completely changed the way you look at yourself, others and your circumstances and what if it enabled you to see a completely different aspect of God’s character, of His heart for people? What if some pain is actually good and has a far greater purpose behind it?

One of the greatest examples that I found of this occurring in the bible is through the life of Jeremiah. In Jeremiah 20:9, Jeremiah talks about not being able to contain the message that the Lord had given him despite his temptation to be silent as he saw no current purpose in it. I can relate to this scripture in light of being tempted to shut off from the things I was seeing and experiencing, the message and things that God was trying to do in my heart because I didn’t see the purpose behind it I could only see the current pain and frustration.

The only way I can really explain what happened to me on this trip is to say that when God breaks your heart for what breaks His it’s the most bittersweet, beautiful experience I know. Just when you feel completely and utterly overwhelmed and like your heart can’t take anymore, in all His faithfulness and goodness, He comes in with His unfailing love and fills you up to overflowing. I found that when my heart was breaking for what breaks His, it was actually being broken into place.

I encourage you to open up your heart to God, to allow him to break your heart for what breaks His, in whatever context you’re in. Don’t let the fear of the pain stop you from experiencing one of God’s incredible and beautiful gifts to us- having our heart broken for what breaks His, broken into place.

Lydia Nancarrow

A Bathurst born, country girl, currently living in the Northern beaches of Sydney whilst studying Leadership and Ministry at C3 College. Lydia loves exploring new places and new cultures, spending time with friends and family and curling up with a good book. Her lifelong goal is to end up on the missions’ field in Africa.