Stepping out of Fear


I wonder how many doors had been closed in his face that day. Door knocking was probably something he never thought he’d find himself doing, but there he was faithfully visiting different homes in his neighbourhood. Little did he know that the people in the next house were searching for something; that he would be the one to lead them to Christ, and that their lives would never be the same again.

This is the true story of where my rich heritage began. Back in the early 80’s, Mum and Dad knelt on the kitchen floor, and gave their lives to Jesus. I was 4 at the time and knew little of what this all meant, or where it would take us.

The doorstep is quite a vulnerable place to be; you may not know who or what is on the other side. It can be a place where you meet rejection, but also a place where connection is made. Stepping out into the unknown and (taking on the world) trusting that God has got this.

For my parents, meeting Tony changed many things, if not everything. It quickly became all or nothing (Dad was never interested in doing anything in halves). Everything was sold or given away; nothing left to hold us down. Both Mum and Dad heard from God about making the move to Egypt - to the horror of family and friends. People thought we were crazy, but I think that goes to show how much my parents completely trusted God! Christians were being killed in Egypt; the oppression was thick as you traveled through the atmosphere. I know that there were times they feared for our lives; car chases, secret police watching us, and sleeping in chicken coops. But through it all, God was with us. He is so faithful.

I’d often find my parents on bended knee seeking God for His direction and provision. I’m sure there was hesitation that they may have misheard when God told them to go, but they kept stepping out. They stepped away from everything comfortable; away from everything safe.

I love the verse in Psalm 37:3, where it says, “The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord”. I’m convinced that God wants us to step out of our comfort zones. Proverbs 3: 5-6 talks about stepping out beyond our understanding and trusting in God with everything. It promises that He will direct our paths! 

When I look back at my parents’ lives, I think I need to take a page from their book and apply it to my own. Somewhere along the way I started to believe a lie and without intending to, I let fear of man take a hold of my heart. It has only been in the last few months that I’ve recognized this, that I’d let fear have control in my life. But this is not the way God intended me to live! Fear holds us back!

The last few weeks I’ve had had 1 John 4:18 ringing through my head. It reminds me that “Perfect love drives out all fear”. The equation here is simple: fear + doubt does not = love. If we want love, then all we need is to trust God. 

I have little people of my own now and it amazes me how they leap and jump at us to catch them with no hesitation; no fear that we could drop them, and no doubt that they could fall in wild abandon! They have not learned to fear. This is what I want to be like with God: completely free. Our faith isn’t about having all the comfort and ease we need to fly through life, but it is about doing life with God, knowing He will never leave us. (what would the point be?). I want to refuse fear and step out in faith, believing that God is with me and that He has all the answers.

I know that it’s time for me to get on my knees.


About Carla Burrell

Carla is the co-mastermind of white magazine – she calls it her first baby! She absolutely loves all things creative, often immersing herself in a world of pretty pictures dreaming up the next new idea. Her main mission is to find a way to support couples in their journey of marriage.
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